Heaven is Roaring - Rest in Peace Mom

My mom would sometimes say “I’ll catch you on the flip side”, except this time when I said my final goodbye, she simply said the words....
 
“I Am Ready”.
 
She closed her eyes, and at 11:04am on Thursday, December 17th she passed away and went to be with Jesus.
 
As someone who spends her days writing and speaking, there are days where I am at a loss for words. There are no words to write or to speak, but that is actually where the magic happens.
 
If you are still, present and listen quietly between breaths, you will know and hear your truth and the voice of God.
 
There comes a time in everyone’s life where a spiritual surrender must happen. Where we tap out. Where we surrender to God’s plan for our life, and not our own.
 
This year, a virus took the world by storm and we experienced a new normal. It was during this time in history, where my Mother received her lung cancer diagnosis, and started...
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There Must be Something in the Water

Fresh out of the water, and you know what... it was a perfect little COVID celebration and baptism and I wouldn’t have had it any other way.

For many years... I would listen to the lyrics of @carrieunderwoods song.. as a country fan and all’s

There must be something in the water

He said, "I've been where you've been before.

Down every hallway's a slamming door.

No way out, no one to come and save me.
Wasting a life that the Good Lord gave me.

Couldn't fight back the tears so I fell on my knees.

Saying, "God, if you're there come and rescue me."

Felt love pouring down from above

Got washed in the water, washed in the blood and now I'm changed.

And now I'm stronger.

And now I'm singing along to amazing grace
Can't nobody wipe this smile off my face
Got joy in my heart, angels on my side
Thank God almighty, I saw the light

Gonna look ahead, no turning back

Live every day, give it all that I have
Trust in someone bigger than me

Ever since the day that I believed I am changed

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Faith Statement.. Why are you even here?

I’ve been writing a FAITH statement for years


Even when you can’t see the road ahead, you put all of your trust and belief that it will all work out, and it’s been my faith, trust and belief that has always kept me going... even in the hard seasons.

It’s a knowing deep in your belly, and you can show up to your life without anxiety, knowing that whatever you want is actually on its way.

As we go through life we ask ourselves deeper questions, for at the end of our life we will be sitting there either fulfilled and happy knowing we played FULL OUT or we will be left with regrets.

We may say things at the end of our life like:

I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

I wish I hadn’t worked so hard.

I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.

I wish that I had let myself be happier.

These are the regrets generally at the end of life.

There are 3 words that you need to know. Purpose....

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Believe it. Achieve it.

faith mindset motivation Dec 20, 2019

 

Is it bad that I don’t want school to be over? 

5 years ago my mornings were awful. I was rushing and barreling into work 2 minutes before I started or just right on time.... sometimes speeding and putting my life in danger to get there.


I’d have major panic and anxiety if I was running late. I couldn’t stand the thought of doing this for the next 30 years.

As soon as that collective agreement came out, I’d count how many days “I’d get off”....And always thought to myself.. is the all there is? Is this really it? 

Go to school. Get a job. Pay bills. Have kids.  Struggle. Rush.  Wait for vacation.  Dread going back....

Those whispers within of a life and career choice that wasn’t serving me, were true.

I hated rushing. I hated being that mom rolling in with panic trying to be on time. I hated yelling at my kids to hurry. I hated working to just pay bills.  

I didn't necessarily hate the work I was...

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The Best is ALWAYS Yet to Come.

Can I share something with you?

I wasn’t always a believer.

The day we found out we were pregnant with Elliott, 2 white little butterflies landed on our windshield.

To date, my 6th pregnancy was the most peaceful and healthiest. I’ve been blessed with 3 babies here on earth to care for.

A Sense of Spirit. You must have that inner sense that you can’t see… but FEEL you have a sense of PURPOSE and direction.

Her pregnancy was smooth. I wasn’t scared. I continued my workouts 5-6 times a week. I drank my superfoods, ate well, watched my portions. Enjoyed cookies when I wanted, and we scheduled her delivery by c-section. Healthy and strong she was.

I wasn’t always convinced. WHY would all these bad things keep happening to me?

From miscarriages, car accidents, financial hardship, a loved one with a hidden drug addiction, divorce, loss of a job, health scares.. WHY?

Today I know better. Today I’ve come out, understanding that life was in fact...

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Beauty UNDER PRESSURE

Sunday’s are a day of faith and family. I wasn’t always a believer though, but now I look back. Things were happening FOR me. Not too me

I don’t need fancy things. Hand me a pressure washer and a cleaning cloth and I’m in love. There’s something so satisfying to me about cleaning. I’m weird like that.

Applied pressure to get built up dirt off, to make it clean and new again. To uncover the original beauty

When I left my marriage with a 4 month old I couldn’t believe that this was how my well “planned out” life turned out. Turns out the life I planned for myself, wasn’t the path I was meant to walk. I heard the whispers all along. But never listened.

The home I worked so hard for, was gone. I couldn’t afford it on my own.

I vowed never again to place my survival in someone else’s pocket. Self sufficient. I can pay and support myself. Move my own furniture.

I remember driving around with my baby boy in the...

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Bandaid Solutions

Took my office to the salon today. Wifi. Cellphone. I’m good to go.

It’s been a while since I’ve had to be up and out and somewhere for 9am. I seriously don’t miss the rush.

How do you know it’s time for a change? Let me tell you.

You’ll FEEL IT. You can change your hair. You can buy a new car. You can get a bigger home. You can change jobs. You can get a new lover. A new pair of shoes… but if you keep putting the SAME unhappy SOUL in those materialist things, you’ll FEEL the dis-ease and you’ll be BROKE AF.

Truth is I had amazing jobs. Amazing colleagues. Amazing bosses. Amazing Roles. I loved my role as a Program Coordinator, I loved my role as an Event Planner and Office Coordinator. I loved my colleagues, but there was always this DIS-EASE.. Something was not well with my SOUL... and I felt lost. Alone. Unfulfilled. Always searching.

I’d change jobs. I’d look for better titles. I’d get a pay increase. My own EGO...

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Trust Your Own Inner Power

faith meditation motivation Dec 25, 2018

 Do you trust in your inner power? Are you willing to wait out the storm and remain dormant of growth knowing that neither good or bad fortune will alter WHO you are meant to be?

Sometimes we have plans, but the universe has other plans for us. We have setbacks, harsh situations, and challenges in life.

 Instead of fighting setbacks, I embrace them and just go with the flow. I ask this question now.... ”What are you trying to teach me??” “Why have you thrown this in my path??”... “What have I yet to learn that needs to be dealt with?”...

I’ve been doing a lot of personal studying lately, as I’ve got something EXCITING coming up in 2019 and I heard this amazing quote by Deng Ming Do.... It was perfect and maybe you can use this in your life too.

Trees  ... Think of the hash winds, the snow and the cold temperatures. The periods with no water, no rain. No sunshine.

 

“They stand and they...

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2 Butterflies - Faith & Belief

The day I found out I was pregnant with Elliott, I remember sitting in our van, and 2 little white  landed on the windshield. I trusted and had faith that this little babe was going to be okay.

I had always suffered from reoccurring miscarriages. When I eventually got pregnant again, I was scared to workout.
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With Elliott though, there was something about just trusting and believing that the universe was on our side and that I could be at peace. That we were safe, supported, and all would be well. 
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I didn’t miss a single workout in 40 weeks. To date the best pregnancy ever. I ate SO well. I enjoyed cookies. I drank my superfoods. I moved, and I never felt better.

During my mat leave.. instead of watching tv shows, and laying around. I would work in pockets of time, building my business. When she was born, Dennis came home, and never returned back. THAT was a huge goal of mine. Family first 

I used to wake up and feel a sense of dread every Monday. A sense...

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Give More

Easton has been asking for a little brother and he finally got one today.

Meet Carlos Rafael. A 2 year old little boy from Nicaragua.

We have so much, and while we have food on our table, clothes on our back, and fresh clean water easily accessible at our fingertips, some mothers need to walk more than 5k to get water for their babies.


This has been something that has been weighing so heavily on my heart for years now. It was on my vision board 4 years ago, and selfishly got pushed to the side.

Today as timing would have it, the opportunity to give more was placed in my path today at the moment I needed it the most.  

For less than a coffee a day, you can make a difference in this world, yet often we operate from NOT ENOUGH, and we get caught up in our own lives, when we should be looking outward.

We operate from a place of lack, and a desire for more, and I believe in my heart of hearts that the best gift we can give is to be in the service of others.  To help. To inspire....

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