Yesterday I told him to fuck off. I also lost my patience and got annoyed with the kids. They were whining and bugging each other all day.
He came into our room all chipper, and I honestly just needed space. I needed 13 seconds alone. I attacked. We didn’t kiss goodnight.
As I went to bed, I felt guilt, and shame. Why? Because when you don’t feel joy within it’s because you personally have reacted with a LACK of LOVE towards another person.
The decision to react in this way is always YOURS. I lost self control, and I don’t want to be that person that treats her loved ones like shit, then puts on a happy face for strangers.
I could have blamed it on the fact that it’s PMS week. I’ve been tracking and monitoring my cycle for a while now and right around this time of the month I’m basically a raging psychopath. I’m pretty sure it’s hormonal and I’m fairly certain I have awful PMS or worse..PMDD.
I’m charting it....
On Thursday’s it’s payday, so we generally connect and go over finances, and budgets, projections and investments into our business.
We’ve been married almost 3 years now. I did EVERYTHING backwards the second time around.
Baby first. No big wedding.
We both are home full time now. Some would look at this as weird… Or different. We are both busy. Both VERY sure and independent. Yes we have 3 kids, and yes.. It’s amazing that we are both home.
I love this man. He’s a gift and from the moment I met him I knew that he Was someone I wanted around for a long time. It’s easy now that we are both home. No stress, and I think that’s been the greatest gift coaching has given my family. TIME.
After my 10 year relationship ended, and I left my first marriage, I wanted to make sure I didn’t put the SAME me into the new relationship. I had to change. I had to learn. I had to...
As a little girl did you ever read those books where you get to choose the path and pick a different ending? I loved those books.
Today is a pretty big anniversary day. We are approaching 3 years of marriage soon.... but this day is the one year anniversary of the day Dennis officially put in his notice, and we became a full-time family thanks to my coaching/online influencer business.
We’ve been a full time family since we had Elliott 19 months ago
In my story. The first path I chose was also love filled. But as it turned out, it wasn’t the path where I lived happily ever after.
Love. Career. House. Marriage. Baby. Divorce. Single Parenting. Struggle. Loss. Heartache. Hurt. Capped Salary. Limited Vacation time. Stress leaves. Existence really.
I cringe at the fact that I almost NEVER chose this second path. I almost never chose it for fear. For uncertainty. For doubt. For insecurity. For not feeling worthy enough or smart enough.
I almost never started dating...
"You get in life what you have the courage to ask for" ~ Oprah Winfrey