Stepping Into A New Reality

I might lose a few friends and followers for this one, but that's okay.  I keep my circle small.  At least I will be staying true to who I am what I actually believe in.  This allows me to weed out those who are not a good fit for me and my values and bring in more authentic and aligned connections.  You know.  Real friends!  

The truth is, for many years I would silence myself or go along with everyone just to keep the peace, but on the inside I was screaming and angry.  The peace keeper, hiding myself away, dumbing myself down to make others feel more comfortable, and just silencing myself in order to make others happy?  Well that version of me has since died and a new version has risen from the ashes.  No longer will I abandon myself ever again.

It's only taken me over 43 years to come the the realization that all this time I was simply standing up for myself, and every time I didn't, man, there was a raging war, commotion, friction, and a lot of stress on the inside. 

All this time I was lead to believe something was wrong with me, when in fact, I had a tremendous amount of self-worth, self-confidence, self-love, and self-respect and was simply protecting that little girl within me who needed someone to actually stand up and fight for her.  You know what?  Not everyone is gonna like that, but do you know WHO will?  I will!

Most recently I deleted my Instagram account and I am in the process of deleting the other social media accounts.  And nope.. I am not interested in paying a $19.99 fee on 3 different platforms just to get a little blue check mark to prove to the world I am legit.  I AM.  Don't trust or believe me?  Well, your loss then, piss off.

In fact, I don't know why I didn't do that a lot sooner, but I found myself clinging and perhaps was a little too scared and fearful to do the one thing I really wanted to do.  Delete the things from my life that were no longer serving me or bringing me any joy.  There was also a part of me that kept whispering that "I am way too good for this bullshit".. and yup, she was totally right.

Have you been there too?  Wanting to make a big move forward, but then scared to take the leap out of fear that you might be losing something?

Here's what I know to be true.  Once you do the thing you're most scared of doing you will have a tremendous amount off inner peace and realization that it wasn't that bad... and that yup.  You'll live and you'll survive and it will be awesome and empowering.  In fact, you'll thrive and be more true to yourself and feel more alive and more creative than ever before.   In it's place something bigger and better always comes along.

So speaking of being true to yourself, this morning I sat and I thought about all of the things I stopped doing, and stopped believing over the years that lead to my greatest amounts of success, health, happiness, self-worth, personal breakthroughs, and inner peace.  Here's the list:

1. I stopped sharing my past or my story of struggle in order to connect with random strangers on the internet.  Perhaps this is partially why I came off Instagram because I still see it everywhere and I've since outgrown that.  Why?  Because repeating your story of struggle and the past keeps you tied to it.  I'm a whole new creation and I have a whole new identity that's being created right now as I write this.  She's nothing like the old me.  Sooner or later history does repeat itself.  Keep telling the same story over and over again and it will soon become your new reality or happen again but in a different form.  This is what we call a "Holy hell, oops I did it again, and wake the fuck up moment!"

2. I stopped sharing my vacations, where I was going, or what I ate for lunch.  Honestly, I enjoy keeping my private life sacred these days and nothing about eating a bowl of popcorn for lunch and not buying into the "you need more protein" or you "need to lift heavier or walk 10K steps with a weighted vest" if you want to live longer is interesting to me.  Sorry, not happening and I'll never be caught dead wearing a weighed vest walking around the neighbourhood.  I'd rather be 20 pounds heavier while eating my bowl of popcorn in peace that's so much.

3.  I no longer post or share pictures of my children online.  Why?  Because my children deserve privacy and protection and I don't just give free access to random strangers on the internet who haven't earned the right to be part of my personal life.

4. I no loner post pictures of my cars, my new purse, what's under my Christmas tree, or anything else I buy.  Why?  Because I don't have to, and it's not very interesting to be honest.  Real success and wealth is quiet.  Sure, I absolutely love love LOVE beautiful big homes, oceans views, big walk in closets filled with shoes, fancy cars and luxury things.  Who doesn't if given the choice right?  But insecurity is very loud and I don't need to prove myself to random strangers on the internet to buy my products or services.  I want to attract whole, abundant and confident people into my life.  Not a bunch of needy, desperate, broke, and insecure ones.  Not to mention more money, bigger homes, and a new $5,000 purse will never bring real happiness if you're not happy first.  Sure, they add joy, but real happiness and joy comes from love, God, living your life on purpose, and knowing who the hell you really are.

5.  I no longer follow dress codes, wear socks (or underwear for that matter), buy underwire bras or allow anyone to tell me what to wear.  In fact, if there's an event that I've been invited to and there's a specific colour theme or dress code, I'm 100% not attending.   Wedding parties and certain special black tie events are the exception but in general I will only wear what I want to wear and what I feel most myself in. 

6.  I no longer believe life is hard, or that everything is a struggle or that I need to work really hard for what I want.  In fact, everything comes easily and naturally to me and my life is really fun, peaceful, and enjoyable.

7.  I no longer believe in budgets, and that things "cost a lot of money" or that "everything is so expensive" or that "I can't afford something."  I can afford anything I want because I know where my true help comes from.  

8.  I don't believe in politics and really don't give a shit about your political view.  It will go in one ear and out the other.  I have never actually voted for or against anyone in my entire life and I'm not about to start picking sides like we did in grade 5.  I'm above and beyond debates.  You can think and believe whatever you want, and I'll be happy for you and support you on that.  I also don't watch the news.  No politician or fear monger on any news station is ever going to make my life better (or worse) for that matter because I am 100% in control of my own life experience.  I don't worry about the future, because that will only rob me of the magic of this moment.

9. I don't believe in taking drugs.  Sure there are times where drugs may be required like having an epidural during childbirth, during surgery, treating an infection, or end of life care, but aside from that, it's a big no-no for me. Even plant based ones are a complete turn off and only cause you to age faster, look 60 when you're 40, slow you down, and kill your braincells.  If you do drugs, smoke drugs, or actually think drugs are cool, we won't ever be friends.  Ever.  I don't care if some are legal or come from a plant either. Again, you do you if that's actually working in your life, but I'm not in the business of numbing out, getting high on drugs, or running from all my problems.  I'm in the business of health, living life to the fullest and making the most out of myself.  If someone needs drugs to feel good or get closer to God, or to "change their life", they have a major problem and should seek help immediately.  Even a lot of spiritual teachers will talk about plant based "medicine" or micro-dosing.  Well, if you are a healed and whole being you don't actually need any medicine or drugs right?  Don't believe the lies they try to sell you on.  You'll be suckered into a "healing journey" for life and will likely be around a bunch of broke, sick, insecure, anxious, and depressed people who have no clue who the hell they even are.  (Keeping in mind you will become like the people you choose to surround yourself with, so choose wisely).  You can raise you own level of consciousness and cure yourself of all pain, depression, and anxiety without putting anything into your body and it's a hell of a lot cheaper too.  It's called  meditation, sitting alone with yourself for a really long time, and really dealing with your own shit that you likely don't want to deal with or face head on.  Scary and frightening yes, but absolutely necessary if you truly want to be happy, healthy and free.

10.  Nothing extra to add here.  I just didn't want to leave it at 9.  It felt unfinished and I actually believe in finishing everything you start, or else, why even begin right?

So there you have it.  Ralph Waldo Emerson once said "To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment."   Today I'm feeling more accomplished and 100% cool, confident, and connected with the person I truly am.  

Can you say the same unapologetically?  I sure hope so!

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