I Chose Myself Instead

I want to share a personal story with you today because I think at some point in our lives, we all experience this.  Women especially.

I’m embarrassed to admit this, but I had been holding onto someone from my past.

In fact, every time I saw her on social media, I hated her.

Despite never wanting to think about her or see her face ever again, I couldn’t release her and I secretly kept creeping her.

The less I wanted to think about her, the more she appeared, and the more successful she became.

What I realized was that she was a mirror reflection of myself.

Beauty, health, wealth, success, style, popularity, energy, leadership, work ethic, recognition, an incredible mother...

But here’s what happened after a lot of self-reflection and meditation.

She was simply a symbol my mind was using to point at something unresolved inside of myself.

I had to ask myself some deeper questions:

“What did she represent that I didn’t want to look at?”

Oddly enough, it was a version of myself who I had been suppressing.

A version of myself who was more confident, more free, more honest, more successful, more abundant, more stylish, more alive.

Those qualities were never hers. They were mine.

She was never blocking those things from me.

She was holding them until I felt allowed to claim them for myself.

Until I felt safe enough to be seen…

Until I allowed myself to want more…

Until I learned to love myself enough to take up space unapologetically…

Once I realized that, everything shifted, and I was able to be grateful for her showing me what I hadn’t fully integrated in myself yet, and then I let her go.

I chose myself instead and the version of myself I was becoming.

I chose the future I was building and creating for myself and my family.

I no longer outsourced my future self to someone else, and claimed what was always mine.

I also got the hell off of social media, deleted all of my accounts and starting living my own life.

And you see…

That’s the real beauty of Mindset Mastery.

Once you know who you really are, you understand that there is enough room in this world for us all to win.

Join here today, and if you’re really ready to become your absolute best self, start with Rise and Shine.

I know you will love it.

xo

Lindsay

Additional Reads:

Wake Up and Live - 101 Days of Deep Inner Work to Transform Your Life

Rising Higher - 101 Days of Rising Happy, Healthy and Free to Serve a Greater Good 

Personal Power - 101 Day of Relentless Action Forward

Life Worth Living - A 28-Day Guide to Inner Peace, Love, and Joy